Brighter the Light, Darker the Shadow
When you grow up with a father who abused you daily,
When you have a father who tried to convince you that your mother's miscarriage was your fault because “God was saving the family from having another disaster,”
When you have a father who told you over and over again you are not good enough, that you are “scum” and a “parasite”,
When you have a father who tried to convince your extended family you are a “whore,”
When you have a father who tried to drown your dog,
Then you have to figure out how to be positive.
You have to be your own light.
I had to get myself out of acute depression multiple times. Each time I’ve gotten stronger. Each time I’ve loved life more. Each time I’ve loved myself more. I laugh, I paint, I sing, I dance and I love... I do these things to be the light I need and to be the light for those I love.
Don’t pity the shadow behind me - be in awe of my light.
(05.30.18)
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Color is a focus of my work for a variety of reasons, but the main reason is for healing. My father was an angry and violent man. He took out his rage on his family daily and I took it upon myself to protect my mother and brother from him by becoming the focus of his fury. We didn’t have much, but my mother filled our home with colorful art to bring radiance into an otherwise dark place. I followed in her footsteps and escaped into vibrant art of all shapes and forms. Getting into the flow of mindful art creation has been the single most important part of my healing. I hope to share the happiness that colorful art brings me with others, especially children.
